Lyrics

Am I Good Enough Now
By Kristopher Daniel Pinnell

[Verse 1]
I swore I’d never
Let their voices
Drag me down
Beneath their choices
But here I am
Again the fool
Letting one voice
Break my rules
The last one left
To hold my name
Is also
Who ignites my shame
How much more
Can I allow
Before I scream
Am I good enough now

[Chorus]
I’m back inside
I’m safe
I’m whole
But still I ache
Inside my soul
The question echoes
Loud and set

Am I good enough now?
Am I good enough yet?

[Verse 2]
I waited long
In this timeline’s mess
Held still in pain
I can’t suppress
In others too
I wasn’t blue
But here I’m back -like déjà vu
Not self-hate
not guilt alone
But every crack
I’ve ever known
Still I rise
With blood and vow
Tell me God
Am I good enough now?

[Chorus]
I’m back inside
I’m safe
I’m whole
But still I ache
Inside my soul
The question echoes
Loud and set

Am I good enough now?
Am I good enough yet?

[verse 3]
Was there a bet?
On how far I’d fall
What would happen and yet?
Would I crawl
Back to you - is just another set
I’m still alive
Not yet dead
All the things I get
That I have done
Are the fights
That I have won

[Bridge]
I cleaned up
the mess
you never saw
Tried to outrun
the silence
outrun the law
Made gold out of scars
wrote my way free
still I wonder
if you ever see me

[Refrain]
Tried so hard
not to break
Even when
I bent for your sake

[Chorus]
Am I good enough yet?
Did I make you proud?
Would you say it out loud?
Did I meet the measure you set?
Or am I still just the one you forget?

[Verse 4]

Wrote a book — healing
Built a site — revealing
Held the gate — believing
Stayed alive — still breathing

Launched a dream — still rising
Told the truth — surprising
Sang my pain — redeeming
Named my ghosts — unseaming

Lights are hung — reflected
Art preserved — respected
Loved a man — still grieving
Watched him go — not leaving

Time split wide — still bending
Felt the shift — no ending
Asked for more — still giving
God said yes — keep living

[2nd outro]
Wrote a book — healing
Built a site — revealing
Held the gate — believing
Stayed alive — still breathing

Launched a dream — still rising
Told the truth — surprising
Sang my pain — redeeming
Named my ghosts — unseaming

Lights are hung — reflected
Art preserved — respected
Loved a man — still grieving
Watched him go — not leaving

Time split wide — still bending
Felt the shift — no ending
Asked for more — still giving
God said yes — keep living